Can not Wish

1,Wish I Could

凌嘉一路拽着我进了临湖二楼,才发现全是人没有位子。于是我只好傻傻站在人家的桌子边上等他们吃完。这时,迎面走来一个高高的帅哥,比较英俊比较有气质,是偶的菜。只见那帅哥径直走过去和凌嘉打了个招呼,顺便用敌意的眼神瞟了我一下。无所谓,反正我习惯了。

终于坐下来,第一勺饭还没入口,凌嘉就一脸哀怨地嗔道:“你知道吧,他要走了,就这样走了,至少好几年,估计没准就不回来了。他都没和我说,甚至没几个人知道,不过你一定知道吧!”说着还泛起一股醋意。

“嗯,我们寝室也才知道的。”我一边嚼一边说。

然后是沉默。

我还记得去年冬天,也和凌嘉这样面对面坐着,她说要表白,向他,我一个劲地鼓励支招。吃着吃着,餐厅里只剩下我们两个了。在几个服务员的讨论和注视中,我们才离开,凌嘉说,和美女吃饭一定要有心理准备。

“当时他拒绝我的时候,你陪着我在启真湖边绕啊绕啊,说留他青山在,表白可以再来。可是现在呢,你还可以说服我说我还有机会吗?”她终于又开口。

“我……”

“别告诉我追我那几个家伙也挺好的。”

“是挺好的呀。”

这次的饭吃得特别快,然后匆匆撤离。路上又遇见我班几个女生。“希望这次不要带给你绯闻,呵呵”凌嘉的意识并没有差错,于是我似乎心安了些。

回到寝室,一个人没有。打开电脑,让音乐流了出来。

We met in a place I used to go, Now I just walk by it for show, Can't bear to go in without you know, Wish I could, Wish I could…

这时,恒开门进来。“这么诡异,灯都不开,又在听什么歌呢?”

我没有理他。他开始在我肩上使劲地捏。终于忍不住,说:“今天见了凌嘉,走之前不和她好好谈谈啥的吗?”“干什么,没有必要吧。”“好歹她也是你大一的时候第一个yy过的女生啊!”

不过我说完这句发现自己又废话了。当时恒拒绝了她,我生气地问他为什么大一大二的时候互相仰慕互相暧昧着的两个人,一年之后终于有人肯迈出了第一步,你却不要了呢。他说,过了一年多,什么感觉都变了,错过的当时已经回不来了。

所以现在,又过了半年,他连出国的事都不再和凌嘉讲了。

然后,恒也不再和我说话,打开他的电脑不知道又在写什么。就这样,我和他分别坐在电脑前,互相背对着。

I don't tell her that I once loved you too, or about all the things we used to do, I kiss her hair and think of you…

Wish I could…what?我真不知道现在我希望出现什么样的转变。是他忽然放弃人人羡慕的出国机会,还是在临走前终于接受凌嘉?不,这些都没有什么意义。也,似乎和我无关。我能干什么?干什么都没有用。

Norah Jones - Wish I Could

http://webmo.cn/load/01-norah_jones-wish_i_could.mp3

We met in a place I used to go,

Now I just walk by it for show,

Can't bear to go in without you know,

Wish I could,

Wish I could.

But Annie is standing in the door,

With a look on her face I can't just ignore,

She tells me that her heart is sore,

And pulls me in,

She pulls me in.

She says "love in the time of war is not fair",

"He was my man but they didn't care",

"Sent him far away from here",

"No goodbye",

"No goodbye".

I don't tell her that I once loved you too,

Or about all the things we used to do,

I kiss her hair and think of you,

Walking down, the road you found.

We met in a place I used to go,

Now I only walk by it slow,

Can't bear to go in without you know,

Wish I could,

Wish I could,

Wish I could,

Wish I could.

2,Christmas Day

Wish I Could一遍一遍地播,播地恒抗议了好几次。寝室里的另外两只都打电话来说不回来睡觉了。于是在还很早的时候,无聊的我也上床了。

迷迷糊糊,不知道是不是梦,一幕幕画面在我眼前晃过。五分钟前,恒还在下面隔着帐子捏我的腿;三天前大雨,他还撑把破伞把我从图书馆救回;一周前还一起凌晨偷偷早起去西湖边上拍照;一个月前天天夜里去操场跑步;半年前,对,就是那个恒拒绝凌嘉之后不久的圣诞节,他……他……

我忽然惊醒,发现自己动不了了,莫非是鬼压床。只见鬼同学把靠在我左肩的脑袋换到了右肩上。“你个变态!想吓死我啊!上我床干嘛!”我惊叫。

“别叫,你的声音走廊尽头都能听见的,到时候别说我毁坏你名节。”

“我的名节,早被你毁透了!别压着我!”

“不行,床太小。”

“滚!”我把他推到一旁,他还死皮赖脸的靠过来。“你给我唱个歌,我就回自己的床睡。”他一脸淫笑地说道,“就是去年圣诞节,我也这样压在你身上的时候你唱的。”“不唱!当时是你大病初愈为了安慰你,现在呢,你要死了?”“快唱,快唱!”说着他开始用牙齿啃我的肩。

我其实也想唱,可是发现怎么也发不出第一个音。

“And the last words I heard him say were, I shall return for you my love on Christmas Day, I shall return for you, My love...”

我在心里默念着,依然唱不出口。喉咙似乎被封住。终于还是没唱,并且连踢带推把他赶下了床。

Christmas Day, will you return? No! 就算是三年后的圣诞,你也不一定会回来吧。

Dido - Christmas Day

http://mp3.96990.com/mp3file/2040/56140.wma

The young gentleman came riding past

on a snow-blue winter's day

He asked to drink by our fire and

I was pleased to let him stay

He drank there quietly for a while

and then he turned and said to me

Your eyes are green

Like summer grass

Your lips are red

like a fresh-cut rose

Your hair is soft

like an Irish stream

And your voice is filled with sweet beauty

And the last words I heard him say were

I shall return for you my love on Christmas Day

And the night will come but I won't sleep

as I watch the stars that lead him

I cannot place where he is

but still my heart goes with him

I'm saving all my Sunday clothes for the day

that I'll be leaving

Father knows

My sister knows

And my friends

They're happy for me

And the priest he says

you should thank God

for the blessing of such beauty

And the last words I heard him say were

I shall return for you my love on Christmas Day

I shall return for you my love on Christmas Day

And the last words I heard him say

Were the last words I ever heard him say

I shall return for you my love on Christmas Day

I said I will return on Christmas Day

And yes, I shall return on Christmas day

I shall return, for you, on Christmas Day

My love

I will return on Christmas Day

I shall return , my love, on Christmas Day

On Christmas Day

3, Only An Ocean Away

恒马上要回家了,在家待上几天后直接飞美国。我们寝室拽上一群人去K歌,当然不包括凌嘉。

大家都很兴奋,恒在那边狂飚高音,飚地我都不认识他了。

然后他们又开始开我玩笑。“小锐,来来来,和阿恒合唱情歌一曲吧!嫁给你还是广岛之恋?”“我觉得还是盛夏光年比较好!”“快过来小锐,不要含羞嘛!”

“烦不烦,有完没完啦…”只要是一起出去,大家就喜欢开我和恒的玩笑。

我继续矜持,恒却一个人唱上了。

不记得什么时候,别人再开我和他的玩笑的时候我会开始紧张,不知道什么时候别人问我喜欢过的人有哪些的时候,他的笑容会掠过脑海,当然也不会最终定格。或许是一种习惯,一种潜移默化。

当我第一次见到他,没有好感;听别人说他帅,不敢苟同;传播他的绯闻,觉得很开心;自己和他传出绯闻,感觉那么得无厘头。他绝不是我的菜。然而,当周围的人一遍一遍地说着我们之间的什么;当绯闻传得学院本年级每个女生都知道;当别人劝他赶快在后备军团找一个,他总说已经有我了的时候,有什么东西,似乎在慢慢改变。

这该怪大家的恶趣味,怪他和大家一起煽风点火,还是该怪我,真的在不知不觉中透露过什么信息吗?

记得有一次又被“调戏”,我忽然大脑短路一个冲动,扑上去从背后抱住了他。正在想会不会有后续的俗套的情节,他却一下子挣脱“啊!你想干什么!别过来!别过来!”尽管常常开一些略为过火的玩笑,可是决不会跳脱底线。他控制地很好,不让我的幻想发芽。这么一来,有所不正常的摇摆的反倒是我了。值得庆幸的是,我确定自己也并没有喜欢上他,仅仅是有些异样感觉,于是分离的苦痛也不必太在意。

“其实,我们以后和你也不过隔个太平洋罢了,不远不远哈哈!”有人对恒说着。又有人催我唱歌,忽然想起莎拉·布莱曼的《Only An Ocean Away》,可是KTV里却找不到这首。于是,我只好点了招牌老歌《我要的幸福》。

周围时而安静,时而嘈杂。唱完之后,喝了几厅酒的恒靠过来往我身上蹭。我知道这点酒决不会让他醉,刚想推开,他低语:“我就早知道,你要的幸福,我给不了。”

Sarah Brightman - Only An Ocean Away

http://www.unf.edu/~lkmao/songs/oceanaway.mp3

I see a shadow every day and night.

I walk a hundred streets of neon lights,

only when I'm crying.

can you hear me crying.

so many times you always wanted more,

chasing illusions that you're longing for.

wish I wasn't crying.

can you hear me crying.

there's an ocean between us.

you know where to find me.

you reach out and touch me.

I feel you in my own heart.

more than a lifetime.

still goes on forever.

but it helps to remember

you're only an ocean away.

was there a moment when I felt no pain.

I want to feel it in my life again.

let it be over now.

oh oh over now.

'Cause I remember all the days and nights

we used to walk the streets of neon lights

oh I want you here with me.

oh be here with me.

there's an ocean between us.

you know where to find me.

you reach out and touch me.

I feel you in my own heart.

more than a lifetime

still goes on forever.

but it helps to remember

you're only an ocean away.

so many times you always wanted more,

chasing illusions that you're longing for.

wish I wasn't crying.

can you hear me crying.

there's an ocean between us.

you know where to find me.

just reach out and touch me.

I feel you in my own heart.

more than a lifetime

it seems like forever.

but I'll always remember

you're only an ocean away.

only an ocean away.

以上情节大多虚构,如有雷同实属对方抄袭。其实是为了推荐那几首很有故事感的歌

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这个音乐很赞,文章我会仔细看的哦~呵呵 喜欢LZ QMD

恩,情节不错。:em_01:

插入第一页

也来插一下

哇~~这个文写得,太赞了。算是完结了吗?还是可以写长

都不像是虚构的呢,太细腻了

回袋袋大哥:

确实完结了嘿嘿,基本虚构,只有一点点现实基础的,呵呵

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我也来插一下

为什么都流行插一下了阿?

lulululu,我要听你讲故事

原来是恒啊

:yc_12: 我不能编辑这个帖子 因为会有乱码

以下是引用会唱歌的小绵羊在2008-7-15 15:35:29的发言:
lulululu,我要听你讲故事

您老无缘无故咋帽出这么一句话啊,俺没您这么感情经历丰富阅人无数,哪有什么故事哦~:em_04: